Man…. Idk if it was me going to sleep at 4 or 5 am…then waking up at 8:30 to realize I had to get up and go out into the rain for my 9:30 meeting! #Lordt …. I think the rain makes me sad or some shit because I’ve been in a funk all day. But its not just the rain… I think the fact that its been months since I got in that damn car accident…. and Iv been going to chiropractors… and now Im doing acupuncture…. yet Im still in pain everyday and things don’t feel like its getting any better… Im starting to get nervous because I figured I should have been back to normal by now. The constant pain and the constant headaches Im getting are really wearing me low…. and then… on top of all of that… and needing 500million fucking things to be done but only having myself to do them…. Im having fucking money issues in 2016…smdh Im telling y’all right now… this is the last month ima be dealing with this money issue shit because Iv been playing myself…. in so many ways. Being too fucking nice…letting ppl use me and take advantage of my kindness… and diming my fucking light so people who really don’t fucking matter won’t feel no type of way about my life being LIT! smh… I hide so much of who I am and what I do… Idk why its always easier to hide my accomplishments.. or ALL the dope shit I do… or shit the fact that Im dope and a walking, talking fucking million dollar brand… with no millions yet smh.
Mannnn…let me not even get into that. … I just feel overwhelmed … and we are only 5 days in…. there is so much I want to do… so many things I feel like I need…. my mind never slows down and it is driving me crazy because I can’t keep up with my own brain… idk if anybody can relate but LORD!!! Shit is getting real out here for the light bearers. And being in pain 24/7 without feeling like I’m getting better is fucking with my head formal.
On a brighter note…. I took a loooooootttt of pics of the jewelry and stuff Iv been making and Im gonna add it to hippiechik.com tonight and tomorrow!!! Theres is absolutely so much work that needs to be done…. I just keep praying to God that I have the strength to keep pushing and stay encouraged.