I have always been drawn to this quote but now it resonates with me more than ever before. I feel like I’m in some kind of major transformative state ….. but instead of it being about me in a physical sense per say…. it feels like it’s my soul that is really going through the transformation…. like it’s breaking out of the cage I created knowingly and unknowingly… idk …. it’s a lil weird cuz it’s like I’m a free spirit …. but not really… because I have been suppressing soooo much of my power and potential my whole life…. for sooo many unworthy reasons….& I have struggled with this fear of my own potential for ages …. this fear of being misunderstood….. internalizing other people’s projections onto me and feeling guilty about my light or brilliance because it makes them feel a way about themselves…. I just want to create and manifest my ideas and visions. I never wanted or want to be portrayed as a threat … so I dim… and hide…. my therapist says I’m afraid of my glory and I have survivors guilt ….& she’s right …. I mean I low key knew this already but for some reason …. shit just hit different when she said it to me….. it’s like I really have to stop being afraid of myself…. and I have to lean into my powers because I have many and I know exactly what they are…. I have just been running from them. But my soul has a mission… I can feel it. And she is sick of my shittttt so everything is being brought to the surface lawd .
It’s kinda hard to explain but I feel like I’m expanding …. and things are naturally shifting and shedding …. some of my gifts I have always tried to suppress are becoming stronger ….. my mind is getting clearer….. my desires are different… my understanding is different…. and there are soooo many things, people, and life experiences that have pushed me into this space but my lord my therapist is definitely leading that race.
Anyywhoooo We are souls on a journey …& in this lifetime I have some very important work to do…& the only way I’m going to be able to do that is if I step into my greatness and OWN it. I gotta stop feeling bad for being a majestic fucking being and start envisioning what my life will be like if I decide to fully be who I truly am….. I guess we are finally about to see so put on your fuckin seatbelts cousins cuz we bout to ride outtttt!!!
If you watch the video you will hear that I definitely veered off and added way more to my rant than what is written here but you guys will get the jist either way you choose to digest the message! lol
I love you all! Let’s keep growing and evolving on this journey together!!!
-Mel